Walls are built to keep everything out and anything in. I think this is why we sometimes build them around our heart. When we do, we are able to keep out any pain, anger, sadness, rejection, heartache - you know, the "bad" stuff that might come our way. This is good, right... I mean, isn't this the point? Well, when you think about it... by building walls we also keep away all the "good" stuff too - all love, joy, acceptance, happiness, fulfillment, peace, etc. Not only this, but we've now trapped in the "bad" stuff that came before the walls did... after all, they provided the tools to build it in the first place.
So it seems that by building these walls, though we may be able to avoid pain, we avoid so much LIFE! I wonder what would happen if we chose the journey that gives us the tools to break down these walls. Maybe we would learn to accept anything that comes our way, even if it includes pain. I wonder if we didn't have these walls, if we would be able to not live in fear of the "bad" stuff. I wonder if then, these realities - the pain and the joy, the heartache and the love, the stifled and the freedom... will remind us we're alive! And just maybe we will be able to let go of our tendency to control reality and rest in the freedom that allows us to just... be.
2 comments:
This is a powerful piece of writing Andrea! Isn't resting on hope so much better than dwelling in pain? You are a precious gem and I think you should consider writing a book!! Love you!
Maybe a wall is the wrong thing to have around your heart...but there has to be something. A gate? A picket fence? Something. Guarding your heart is something I "taught" but never understood personally until I began dating this last year. I did not have any wall up and my heart was injured. I will not have a wall, but that little bit of fencing is protection enough to let someone look in, and allows me to look out...yet, the gate will have to be opened to allow anyone to get in.
Very good blog!
:)
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